i know this will happen.

do you know how it feels when u got a sister i mean the only sister but u cant never be close to.?
amirul.?
since when he became my brother and since when he cares about me.?
do you know how it feels when every single people i met kept on asking me about u and i dont know what to tell.
and when they ask amirul about u, he can easily answer it.
who is he.?
ur cousin.!
who am i.?
UR SISTER.!
yes u can said i got abah and mama but how on earth exactly do u know that.?
i can easily said u also got abah and ibu.!
yea u read my blog.
so.?
ur beloved cousin said that im wearing tube and i put in on9.
is he blind or something.?
u know me and im not that cheap.!
ohh yea. we've never been close and thats why he dont even recognised my face.!
do u know that i feel damn terseksa when i met cikti and all.?
do u even know that.?
u chose abah but u still get the same special treatment from cikti mamana nenek even cuju.!
me.?
i chose mama but what i get.?
they still keep on banding us.
do u know that.?
times when i wanna meet abah and cikti scolded me bacause of it.
she said she tanak get involved.
is that how a 'caring' aunt should act.?
if u want bukti u can ask faris.!
he saw me crying.
and i told abah i cant go because of other reason.
why.?
bacause i dont want to buruk2kan ur fav aunt.!
am i not good enough for that.?
but when u wanna met nek at her hse, she said yes.
do u know how i felt.?!
and u told me with ur smiling face that cuta and mamana call u.
me.?
do they even bother.?!
and all ur aunts and uncles.
do they even bother about me.?
none.!
its just ayah.
at least i can feel that i still have an uncle there.
do u know whats our perbezaan.?
if we entered the same room full with all of our families, the first person they'll saw, is u.
they'll ignored me.
u are lucky.!
everybody loves u.
yes maybe i got abah and mama.
but i have only them.
i lost everyone else.
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reply to fain.
my sis.


abah.i dont mean to hurt ur feelings.its just theres times when i felt depressed.so i put in my blog cause i dont have anyone to talk to like i used to have one.im sorry.im really sorry.dont feel bad because of me.dulu i used to feel im ur beloved daughter.i used to get special treatments from u.and i wont care about mama because mama always give along and arif her's.i dont bother because i have urs.but now its totally diff.i really miss you.sometimes i just wish that this things wont happen.
iloveyouabah.
abah.